Fever Queen

came back from chalet dis mornin.. the moment i stepped into my hse, my temperature increased n headache strike force is activated before i dropped Dar at work place.. the next thing i remember is i hit my bed after washin up.. cant reali fall asleep the whole mornin.. but dozed off late mornin cox my head reali hurts lik thousands of ppl drilling inside my brain.. i cant reali sleep well the whole day n been wakin up almost every 2 hours cox my head hurts.. till now it still hurts n my fever dun seem to decrease.. i wonder wat illness i gt.. been havin the damm fever for nearly 2 weeks.. but thank God it come n go.. grr.. *angry*
the chalet was quite fun cox gals gt lotsa to chat.. n someone actually realized i'm the youngest of them.. cox i'm the onli second batch of the sch who attended.. the rest is all the 1st batch students.. i big mistake i made is.. i went the late cox almost a few is leavin wen i reached ther.. haa.. super funny.. n they said is lik seeing artist.. few minutes of meeting n off we go... lol.. is reali funny.. causing the pics to onli have me in the last fews while the front without me.. but glad they understand my situation for now.. haa.. all the pics is wif Joyce.. hope she'll upload them soon.. cox i'm waitin to grab some over in my blog.. haa.. maybe do some photoshop n paste everyone sch time pics so can compare.. lol..
i forgot hw mani weeks passed without him.. i missed him damm damm lots.. is lik back at the time he went taiwan n i waitin for him come back.. but dis time is different.. thou i saw him in msn but i dare nt talk to him.. i dunno how to start a topic between him n me.. cox in fact our life is totally different.. i did told Dar before.. it's hard for us to get back tgt cox of our different lifestyle.. n it's totally impossible for us to make time out wen we're nt tgt anymore.. circle of frenx different.. lifestyle different.. timeslot different.. alot alot different.. i dunno waitin in dis way izzit good or bad choice.. but i believe my choice.. cox i stand strong wif wat i choosen.. who cares which ever is gonna hurt me again.. i believed n i'll stand strong wif it..

Love Him Forever

P.S : i'm not gonna give up on u.. cox u're the one who i see future wif..
i dunno if u will read, but i hope u understand how much i mean to me..
i realized i din have any intakes till now.. even my dinner dun interest me.. every food i saw now make me felt so yucky to put into my mouth.. unless u guys wanna cal me.. i suggest u all sms me beta.. cox i guess u all oso dun wanna hear a half-dead voice.. =)