New

whoa.. i actually made new frenz again.. Boon n Kish.. both stay nearby my place.. lol.. so we meetup n have a chat.. lol.. they both reali funny.. gt lotsa things to disturb abt as they told me abt their adventure.. lol.. guess i will be able to make more frenz in the comin years.. Happy make new frenz day !!!

Forever
Love Baby Forever

Dblo Madness

my best pal, Dexy

slackers..

too shy??

the pro dancer gals..

Dexy tryin to be funny..

Ladies..

they jux love sharing..

Long Lost Fren, Mervyn

y he touch his face?? 0.oMer's treat at live band bar..
it's reali nice taste.. Love it !!!

KK is Down !!!

How he slep sia??

reali had great fun today.. nv tot so qiao Dexy wanna go club.. so i jux join in as i reali feeling quite down abt some stuff.. glad my best pal is wif me.. get to noe lotsa ppl.. but seriously cant reali rmb the names.. lol... too drunk.. but all the new frenz reali damm nice ppl.. n all damm FIT.. dammit.. they reali train lik hell in camp.. commandor leh.. -.- never did i expect.. i saw my sec sch frenz ther too.. some i din call out.. but onli 1 who passed right infront of me.. lol.. Mervyn.. get to chat up alot wif him.. n knew some of the stuff which he did explain to me.. lol.. after everythin.. left me, dexy n KK.. so we decided to chilled out awhile at nearby mac before takin 1st train home.. chat alot wif dexy.. n share lotsa our thoughts.. wootz.. n 2 hrs jux passed so suddenly.. haa.. reali chattin wif pals is damm fast time runs.. wen reach stn.. Leslie show up after his 2nd party.. lol.. so qiao.. so we all took the same side train home.. safe n sound.. juz tt i heard 1 of their fren gt into a fight in the club.. dammit.. anyway.. the next clubbin gonna wait till those guys back from their overseas trip ba.. so nw.. is time to study 4 exam liao.. =) Thanks Pals.. Great Knowing U Guys.. hee..

Forever
Love Baby Forever

Down Down Down

i'm totally down.. i'm upset.. i'm broken.. i'm lost..
Once again.. i'm back to being alone.. boring life..
glad tt my frenz dun mention their r/s stuff..
glad tt i have pals to comfort me..
glad tt i gt a job so i can earn money..
glad tt i have my didi to do my stuff for me..
glad tt my best dar stayed wif me ignoring her bf.. wahahaha..
glad tt someone cheer me up almost every nite..
glad tt my bro tried to send me to n from sch almost everyday..
glad tt no ppl ask too much abt wat happen to me..
glad tt i still made ppl's day..
althought all dis gladness.. but still..
i'm broken..
i tried to put the best part of me infront of everyone..
but i'm hurting inside.. knowing the reason..
i jux cant cry out.. i had lost the ability to scream n shout..
i had lost the ability to cry as loud as i wan..
i had lost everything tt had been important to me..
i had lost..

Tears tried to escape..
but stopped by my stubboness..
Voice had to be heard..
but covered by my sadness..
Words had to be seen..
but my fingers dun seem to move..
I had lost the ability.. to cry.. to speak.. to write..
I know.. Only U can give me the ability again..

Forever
Love Baby Forever

Oh..

BORING ~~~
i'm miserable today..
Missing him ~~

Still
Love Baby Forever

Earring ~~

new piercing.. yeah.. next challenge is ear top?? cox tongue pierced last time.. hee..

finally i gt another new piercing.. on my left ear.. hee.. actually tot of piercing both sides.. but thinkin back it would be quite normal.. hee.. so jux pierce 1 side will do.. actually it's abit pain wen jux pierce.. but after 1 hr plus it dun reali hurt anymore.. maybe is cox pierce bottom nt top ba.. n think it's abit waste tt i took the lotion.. cox i dun even need 1 at all.. ever since i gt my 1st piercing.. the lotion is totally useless to me.. lol.. but still abit regret.. cox pierce wrong ear.. lidat will be covered by my hair.. so if wanna let ppl c gonna have my hair tie up again.. hmm... think it's time 4 me to put some makeup again n tie up my hair.. hee.. mux be pretty pretty before my bday.. though is 1 mth plus more.. but still... basic facial n outlook care had to be taken.. =D
Thanks Eng Gee "Fatt" n Ken accompany to the piercing.. lol.. Gee "Fatt" ear more pain cox she pierce back her old piercing.. -.-

I
Love Baby Forever

When a girl cries it doesn't mean she's weak..
If a girl cries infront of you,it means she couldn't take it anymore..

If you take her hand,she would stay wif you for the rest of your life..
If you leave her,she couldn't go back to being herself anymore..

A girl wont cry easily infront of the person whom she really loves the most..
A girl wont cry easily, only wen she loves you the most..

If a girl cries infront of you, please hold her hand firmly,
because she's the one who is willing to stay with you for the rest of her life..

If a girl cries infront of you, please don't give her up..
Maybe because of your decision, you could ruin her life..

When she cries infront of you when she cries because of you..
Look into her eyes..
Can you see & feel the pain and hurts her feeling??

She cries not because she weak..
She cries not because wants sympathy or pity..
She cries because crying silently is no longer possible..
The pain, hurt and agony have become a burden to be kept inside..

Guys, think abt it..
If a girl cries her heart out to you, and because of you..
It's time to look back on what you have done..
Only you will know the answer to it..

Do consider it cause one day
It maybe too late for regrets
It maybe too late to say "I'm sorry"..

Don't always think that you are right all the times..
Think carefully!!
Everyone are responsible for everything we do..
She may did wrong but who makes her do wrong??

Think again..
Don't because of what you have done..
You lose a girl that you love most in your life..

Taken From a Friend's Blog.. which i think is reali a nice post talkin abt hw a gal feels..

OMG

suppose to go 4 a drink ytd.. but last min dar call up n say cancel.. but sadly.. i'm alrdy in my car gonna drive out.. so sice i alrdy outta hse.. i told dar i meet her 4 coffee or somethin.. cox i gt some stuff to talk to her abt.. reach her hse aft mid nite.. n nv expect to c Keith oso down ther.. haiz.. so which means our gals talk wun be tt long.. haa.. told dar wat happen few hrs ago.. reali nv expect it would happen.. cox i tot end liao.. anyway.. nw gonna concentrate on study n earn money.. hee.. for my bday celebration.. n oso thinkin of goin on a trip overseas.. Janice muz JiaYou !!!
today chat on phone.. someone actually told me tt i a persistance gal.. whoa.. amazing.. haa.. glad tt u think dis way.. it's true la.. wat i decide on i nv gib up.. no matter wat happen nth will change my mind until i decide to gib up.. cox i'm the 1 makin the choice.. =) i choose my own way of living.. n i wun let anyone worry abt me unless is tt special person.. so i choose to smile to everyone instead of lettin anyone noe abt my emotions.. Cheers 4 Janice !!! Woohoo... =D

Forever
Love Baby Forever

GoodBye..

it had stopped at my favourite number..

sayin byes to my ten years friend.. it had been wif me for ard ten years or more.. reali a sad thing to c it go.. cant bear.. though it broke down weeks ago.. i choose it cox it's reali damm nice n cute.. the color i always love.. n the music so cute oso.. but the music stopped years back.. still it's tickin.. tellin me i'm stil alive.. but nw.. it totally stopped..
thinking back the times.. it accompany me through all hardships.. broken times.. happy moments.. everytime.. it's ther.. but nw.. i had no choice to say byes.. cox it's beyond repair.. nw i officially said my byes to it..

Good Bye My Precious Mickey..
U Made My Life A Beautiful One..
Telling Me When I'm Late or Early..
None Will Replace Ur Place In Me..
Thanks For Being My Precious Time..
Thanks For Accompany Me Always..
Good Bye..

Still
Love Baby Forever

Yummy

Keith cooked for us.. finally.. lol..

My lighter collection.. damm cute !!

Dar n Keith were at my place again.. finally after so long we get to meet again.. haa.. n today is mahjong day.. wootz... lost quite an amount last nite.. but managed to recap back everything today.. Dar n Keith stayed over the nite n Keith finally managed to wake up n cook for both of us before we start the game.. haa.. played mahjong till late nite again n sent them back before mid-nite.. but by the time i reach hm was damm after mid-nite.. haiz.. but seriously last nite road reali damm coolin to drive.. hee..
Love Dar Dar.. Thanks 4 accompany me.. Muz Love Love Keith more worx.. dun always quarrel.. Muackx..

Still
Love Baby Forever

Erm..

u tried to explain everything.. tell me everything..
but i'm still bothered by it..
u said u miss me.. i miss u damm lot too..
i wanna hold ur hand..
ur gentle touch feeling on my cheeks..
ur kisses i had nv forget..
ur warm hugs tt touches my back..
ur arm tt become my pillow wen asleep..
ur looks in my eyes nv fail to read my mind..
u had my promise.. i'll nv stay away..

I
Love Baby Forever

Oh.. Well..

been quite bored nwadays.. toopid ppl scoldin me over in Viwawa.. dammit.. n of cox.. miss Jan is in super bored n bad mood.. n tt latter get a shit from me.. naturally miss Jan juz simply kick tt ass outta the room n continue the game n complained all the way.. cox someone jux dun wanna ans the damm HP wen it's in the reach.. whereby the meetup for sometime seems to be going nowhere but the back of the brain..

whoa.. thanks man.. u said i no time meet u.. but it's u who dun have everything well-planned..dun blame me worx.. nt i dun wanna call u.. is i dun even noe wher the hell u hiding again.. so pls.. dun said thing n nv do it.. u're always lidat.. too bad i juz noe u too well..

of cox.. dun say miss Jan is always slackin ard doin nth.. she's actually tryin her very best to earn a living on her own.. cox she had juz set a super hard target for herself.. which onli her best pal noe.. haa..

SL, be glad tt u're the onli one who noes wat i targeted.. n keep it to urself..

i'm gonna show ppl tt i'm actually still alive n kickin so tt ppl wun keep comin to my msn n ask how's my life been.. i can onli say it's damm damm damm worst.. i reali hate August.. it's the mth i hate most..
Last but nt least.. Guess wat?? i FINALLY got the Sepang trip photos after months of waitin.. but i wun be uploading them in here.. cox it's sort of quite private stuffs goin on.. maybe.. i shld stop uploadin pics in here..but if words cant explain anything i might upload pics again.. cox sometime i'm reali damm lazy..
Anyway.. i juz got some news from my pals tt they had some stuffs goin on n i gonna be ther.. haa.. hope those plannin dun crash wif anything.. hmm..

Still..
Love Baby Forever

Beancurd

Xing Zai

smelly??

nice..

the bill.. haa..

Kor brought my to eat beancurd.. smelly beancurd.. nice... reali love it.. hee... shall try again..

Still..
Love Baby Forever

Sentosa

thanks for callin me along for the sentosa trip.. reali enjoy n played alot.. felt beta today cox i noe u guys stil ard me.. glad tt i able to c him oso.. thanks bros.. but stil abit lost of words.. anyway stil thanks to everyone who played wif me today.. haa.. so fun.. hope to c ya guys soon..

I Still
Love Baby Forever
I Wun Give Up!!

Sorry

i'm sorry guys.. i juz cant help being broken.. i let u guys down.. sorry.. i'm too stubbon to let go.. it's him whom i want.. sorry..

Love Baby Forever

Thanks again..

thanks again people.. who support me wen i'm down.. seriously i din expect some of u to read the previous post.. but stil glad tt u guys remember me.. haa... felt abit alive..
hmm... most important to thanks is...
Dar..
u're my best best best bestie.. u noe me the best.. u noe wat i'm thinkin always.. u noe how i felt.. though u busy wif tt toopid bf of urs.. haix.. but u stil stay over the phone wif me.. hee... u're my best best best Evelin Dar Dar.. Love u lots..
Atz..
u been tellin me i'm a nice gal.. thanks bro.. but hw nice can i be wen i stil lost in dis match.. anyway thanks for tryin to help me matchmake.. haa... it's quite a nonsense but stil funny.. no worries u guys stil my frenz.. i'll stil be able to go out whenever u guys cal me.. hee..
Brown..
u worried so much for me wen i told u everything.. i noe u care.. cox we been frenx for so long le.. u always try to make me smile.. i'm glad havin u as my fren.. cox u're always ard tryin to help me.. thanks.. i nv forget wat u did for me wen i'm down.. =)
Didi..
u encourage me nt to think so much.. wen i din wen sch u gather all the information we needed for FYP for me.. u're my best didi i ever had.. n always will be..
thanks everyone who care for me..
nt forgettin the one who hold the phone wif me for nearly 1hr.. haa... somemore is the time wen u haben bath.. n oso smsed me every mornin checkin out my condition.. haa.. reali thanks.. but i oso tired every mornin wake up so early wen i onli gt 2 hrs slp to reply u.. haa.. thanks..

but sadly.. i'm glad i had u guys to comfort me.. but stil.. i need to apologize.. cox even if i luff over the phone wif u guys.. my heart is stil nt smilin.. can say.. is cold again.. i dun wanna put up a mask infront of all of u.. but i juz cant let u guys c.. i understand u guys efforts.. stil i gonna say sorry guys.. i need time to think through wat i can do abt dis matter.. cox it's way too important to me..

Thanks Guys.. I Love U Guys Too.. =)

Still..
Love Baby Forever

NoBody

y i cant cry.. y i always keep everything inside.. y i always so stubbon.. y i always give up so easily..
cox i'm lost n i dunno who i can lean on anymore.. cox i dun wanna let ppl noe wat's happening.. cox i dun wanna let ppl take over my life.. cox i dunno wat side effects will be if i hold on..
i'm afraid to lose.. i'm afraid to tell.. i'm afraid to show.. i'm afraid u'll noe.. i rather keep u away from me den being close.. cox i'm someone who's so useless.. always hiding behind my mask..

tryin to bring smiles to everyones faces..
tryin to be miss nice to everyone..
tryin all means to stay alive..
showing i'm stil breathing..
NoBody Shall See My Tears..

I still..
Love Baby Forever

The End

the end of everything.. our 100th days.. sadness but tears dun drop.. sniffing back every single drop tt tryin to escape.. ther is no hope left.. i'm down..

thanks 4 everything..

Love Baby Forever

Happy 100th Day

basically.. nothing to post.. juz finish scannin TH blog.. damm funny wif all the pics.. we reali created lotsa amazing stuff on tt day.. celebratin both National Day n Atz n Baby's result.. haa.. they passed..
today is our 100th day.. hmm.. n start of sch.. damm tired... haben slp.. lookin at the time of dis post.. nw is my slpin time.. wonder if Baby gonna meet me nt.. he's been workin lately.. haiz... poor Baby.. gonna catch some slp before sch lata.. 2 hrs left.. yawnz..

Love Baby Forever

Trust

i felt.. lost of trust in him.. ever since the came back from indon.. he start to think tt i restrict his life.. but did i? wen i onli mainly cal up n ask wher he is wif who.. nag abit for nt tellin my he meetin other ppl n nv bother to ask me along.. m i in wrong? i nv change any bit since his return.. but y had he change? even 4gettin our day..
nw.. i'm waitin.. for his call.. which he promised to let me noe wen he left office.. ringin him up every 1hr without fail.. callin everyone askin his whereabouts.. no body had any clue.. he disappeared.. after our last conversation at 8pm.. 1am.. i'm stil waitin..

i had lost my trust in everyone..

even him..

So What?

toopid Baby din even rmb the day.. toopid Baby din even bother abt me.. toopid Baby made me upset over sat nite stuff... *slap, slam, punch, pinch n bite Baby !!* roar ~~
glad i had frenz.. those tt accompany me throughout my way.. had fun on sat nite.. drink drank drunk.. wootz..

stil..
Love Baby Forever

Happy 3rd Month

ther's nth to blog abt it.. cox ther's no meetups.. no romantic moments.. no NOTHING..