I Wish I Wish

how i wish he's right beside me nw.. but guess wat.. he's at his fren's celebratin dunno who bday.. i'm down wif fever ytd.. today i felt much beta n attended my meetin.. but i guess i'm gettin worst nw.. sent wife n TPIS to svc.. the rain was super duper big n i nearly slide off the road shoulder wen drivin to expo.. nt once but twice.. super scary.. cox wife notice the second time cox it's reali slide off road alot.. FYI.. ther's no prob wif my drivin skills n not my car prob cox i was travellin at the speed of 70 at tt time.. is cox the rain is too heavy n the road is flooded wif water.. so rest assure wen takin the ride in my car.. =)
so nw.. i'm home.. stil i din c any sight of him.. i always want my dearest to be at my side wen i'm ill.. but it seem so hard for it to happen.. cox as i noticed.. guys always need gals to be more clearer in their needs n wants.. i did mention to dearest tt i wan him beside me wen i'm ill.. but he will jux follow wif a sentence of.. i'm sick oso.. or.. i'm tired so i meet u tml.. wat's the use of tellin him again n again of i need him by my side wen he gt all the reasons nt to be here? so i choose nt to say anythin of callin him over anymore.. instead is either cal him go rest or if he can den meet me the next day.. but as every gals understand themselves.. wat they said is always the other meanin of wat they expect from their dearest.. too bad mine jux dun understand..
i felt hurt wen he said i'm sarcastic, childish, immature, 'act ms perfect' or troublesome.. wen ever those words came from him.. i always feel my tears rollin in my eyes n my heart become heavier as i dun wanna shred a single tear infront of him.. i become more n more hideous towards him.. i felt mute towards him.. cox i cant pour out my sorrow to him wen he dun even have the mood to share wif me.. i need alot of quality time.. if he is willing to give me the quality time even it's jux once every week.. i'll feel thankful for him spendin wif me.. but till nw we din have the chance to have a heart to heart session anymore.. cox he'll say.. wat will happen if he come over?? quarrel again?? i dun understand y he thinks tt way.. i did mention to him before.. as long as he's beside me i'm contented.. y cant he jux think positively?
sometimes i wonder did i fail as a gf? if nt y my dearest is always thinkin negative? y cant my dearest be trueful to me? it's fears me wen i tot of him leavin.. but if it's destined, i cant stop it either..

I'm sick.. Fever came back.. Flu not getting any better.. Headache getting worst.. He's still not here for me..

Had our honeymoon period came to an end??

I Need Ur Care N Concern