Fever

yes.. as stated my title.. i'm havin a fever.. nw i feelin much beta after a nap.. but stil the flu n headache is stil ther.. dun ask me wher my bf.. cox he's actually at his own place.. he said he havin flu n restin.. so qiao.. i sick he oso sick.. yes.. i super pissed off nw.. cox alot of things cropped up.. nw i dun even noe if tml i can attend my meetin nt.. cox wif the flu n fever comin n goin.. nth is gonna get any beta.. especially wen my tt sick bf is nt here.. i can understand he's sick n tired n everything.. but can he understand wen i need him by my side n stop quarreling wif me?? too bad.. he dun.. he keep his stand while i kept mine.. i nt gonna say anymore to him.. cox he jux cant be bothered..
well.. i wonder if i did wrong for callin him go back to slep.. as he said i been selfish.. so.. i nt gonna say anymore abt it.. let him think the way he wants.. i'm sick.. fever, flu, blocked nose n headache.. pray God take all the sick cells away from me.. i noe my beloved wife is keepin me in her prayer cox she will wan me to attend tml's meetin.. love my wife.. muackx..
the more i think.. the more i felt he dun even bothered abt me.. he made me feel more lik a fren to him den a gf.. i dunno y i thinkin dis way.. although he's nt ther wen i need him always.. but i dun understand y cant he make the effort to be ther for me wen i need him more den jux the medicine? i feel lik tearin wen i think abt it.. is he nt concern abt me anymore? wat he treatin me as nw? a friend or his beloved?
i can easily guess he wun be readin my post.. cox he dun even show any concern abt me anymore..

I'm heartbroken as i start losing faith in him..