Down

i'm too down to actually remember to post any new post.. had a few pics but reali nt in the mood to post oso.. still i'll do my job of updating some recent issues..
i dunno who i can talk to abt my life nw.. cox i'll totally down.. in pieces maybe.. i dunno how to accept all the facts tt's happening the past week.. everything start changing.. thou i noe myself too well.. stil i dunno who i can cry to anymore.. to my frenx i'm a strong one in holdin back all my feelings.. but wen i wanna start cryin he's nt ther anymore.. y cant life be more easier for me? i hate myself for being so weak in some stuffs.. i jux dun understand..
nw is early in the mornin.. i reali wish he's here for me.. at least to peace my mind.. cox i onli need him to be wif me.. i dun understand anymore.. my mind is blank.. eyes red.. moodless.. heart sink.. words stuck at my mouth.. i wish he's back here by my side..
if i'm such a dear to him.. he wun think of lettin go.. it's nt the time issue wen i can accept everything abt him..
i hope he understand how i feel n be wif me..

Love Him Till Very End