Fear..

I'm sick again... thought my eye recovered.. i start feeling sick again...
dunno is cox my mental thinking over past years heartache that makes me feel sick..
or dis few weeks stress out problems... school... friends... emotions... so many other things...
all my friends said the same thing... "Take good care of urself" even him told me same thing..
i start thinking.. m i reali that weak? use to be so healthy.. lively.. cheerful...
but why, whenever year end reaches.. i start feeling sick again... simply hate myself lidat...


i become more n more pale... my food intake decrease.. my energy seem drain off easily...
everyday going to school is like going to hell... i get tired easily... even though i slep early...
flu... cough... bone chill... black eye rings... stiff shoulders... all came and visit me...
worst still... my asthma attack more frequently... i even nearly faint when walking down stairs...
on mrt station... in school... at work place... walking accross the road... and even on bridge...
Whenever i thought i gonna faint... i fear i might juz go down n nv get up again...


I'm Weak...
R u there to help me up?
Will u heal my broken soul?
R u the one who will hold my hand?
Will my smile be more n more bright?